I do know this . . . . that God is really proud of me, and cheers me on as i make my decisions. He thinks its great when i leap off a cliff and expect to be caught – and He always catches me. He would have caught me again in Manchester. I know it. I have been leaping for 20 years and He has been catching for 20 years.

But when I choose not to leap, but rather to retire and call it a day, then I feel God is also cheering, . . . but from His armchair. God is my greatest fan, when i make the impossible leaps and land safely in his arms. And His applause does not die down when hang up my towel, pack my bags and head home to my family. I might doubt myself, and others surely will. But God will sustain his enthusiasm for me as I co-create with Him, as I partner with Him in reconciling all things to Himself, in aggregating all that needs to come home to Him. Everything and everyone.

this is from a wonderful and vulnerable/honest post faith and gutlessness from tallskinnykiwi on the struggle at times of stepping out in faith and of missional living with not much cash! it’s worth taking the time to read the whole post.